–Reload.  Dash commentary again, likely another unpopular one.
     This thing about parents not really knowing that you actually have a psychological problem?  Yeah, this is about that.  Some of the comments make me frown.
     You realize why they say things in skepticism, right?  When they don’t believe you?  It’s because problems like today’s weren’t as widespread during your parents’ generation[s].  Maybe you don’t think that excuses them, but it doesn’t excuse you, either.  They won’t be thinking that you have an issue unless you tell them because they just don’t expect it.  And you have no right to hold it against them.  If your kid, one day, is super-enthused about, say, the Church, and wants to become a priest/nun–you would have to try to understand, even though your generation isn’t that thrilled about religion.  Say s/he comes to you with some phobia no one has ever heard of before, say of a pink colored pencil–it sounds ridiculous.  That is likely how your parent is thinking.
     I don’t mean say it or yell it at them as a one-liner thing.  I mean you sitting your ass down with them with the words, “Mom, Dad, we need to talk.  I have this problem, and I want your help.”
     But I don’t want help, Sennen.  Bullshit, you don’t.  If you didn’t want help, you wouldn’t be whining about it on here.  No one wants to stay unhappy forever; no one wants to die.  Sit down, talk with your parents, come to an agreement.  And if you feel like that didn’t work?  Go find another adult.  A friend’s parent, a teacher, your boss, a friend of yours if s/he isn’t a kid like you are.  I have a couple friends that are older than me, and because of that, they have likely been through more crap than me: they know how to deal with it.
     And I don’t mean, didn’t work because you didn’t make a full effort to bring them around.  That doesn’t count.  How can you expect anyone to understand if you don’t express it?  If you can’t speak, write it down.  Clearly I’m not understanding something, either, because I’m seeing all this baby talk on the dash about how my parents don’t understand me when it seems like you haven’t even tried to meet in the middle.  I’m seeing all of this bitching and I’m just, “What the hell is wrong with all of you?  Are you sixteen or six?”
     Instead of spewing stuff on the dash, go and pull someone over.  Say, “I need someone to talk to."  And your friends will help you.  We don’t ditch each other like that.  Tell them, on a call if you possibly can.  And for once in your life, leave the computer and the games.  Go find a real-life friend, your family, anyone.  But someone who isn’t online.  I’ve also seen that everyone thinks it’s a lie that the computer cuts off relationships–it’s not.  Yeah, you can meet people in other countries, an opportunity you might have never had, but the person in Europe does not come before the people you interact with on a daily basis.  Leave it.  Go outside, walk around, watch some birds, play a game with someone else.  Write something, draw something, show it to someone and say, "look what I can do.  I am not useless or lazy.  My talents are hidden, and I don’t know how to use them."  I know I don’t.  I’m amazing at writing, drawing, HTML, strategy, math, basically anything I put my hands on, and yet nothing is handed to me on a silver platter.  I work my ass off every weekend putting myself through college without really knowing why I’m there in the first place.
     It’s okay to be afraid, it’s okay to not know.  But it’s not okay to act like these burdens are yours and yours alone when you haven’t even tried to reach out to someone.
     tl;dr:  There is no too long; didn’t read.  Everything I had to say was important.  Go back and read it; it might even be useful to you.

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4. twocatstailoring said: {You. Are. Brilliant. Is there anything you say that doesn’t echo my own thoughts? Honestly? I admire your patience too with allowing such things to stay on your dash. I don’t possess that.}
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